Animals

most of the time when i talk about my animals being therapy for me it's their unjudging love and their uncapable (not being able to cap) happiness. how they just take it as it comes and nothing is too complex or difficult, they just mosey on their way dealing with life as simply and cheerfully as possible. but sometimes that's not what i need, i'm not just bored and glum, but really feeling down, really feeling like something is missing, like i've done wrong, or just that i'm not well, my back pain is worse than normal, or my stomach isn't getting along with the meal i fed it earlier, and its then that the calm, unobtrusive affection shown by my irma is special. she just comes to me wherever i am, if it's the floor by the toilet or curled up on the couch and she sits with me. she nuzzles me with hernose when i move to her, but otherwise she is simply there to provide support. companionship when it would be too complicated with another human because i would have to put in words what it is i'm feeling, what it is that's wrong, when sometimes all i need is to just sit, sit and decide how i'm feeling and how i'm going to feel and a quiet observer, undemanding like that is exaclty what i need.

it's times like that that i think about the complex powers animals have. i don't doubt that they aren 't "smart" the way we humans are, but maybe they're smarter in a much more valuable way. they don't create trouble for themselves the way we do, they don't worry about the things we make a fuss over, they don't interact with others when they don't want to and when it's forced on them they're honest. their curiosity is never squelched but when they're tired they sleep when they're hungry they eat and when they simply feel like enjoying themselves and being silly, they are. i think humans have a lot to leaern from animals. even ones we call dumb and thoughtless like cows or pigs. i'm not saying a world where humans acted as cats do would be a world that worked but if we could try even the slightest to be as good natured and loving as they can be we would all be better people. if we could trust the way dogs do, despite abuse and neglect we could all be called saints. if we could make decisions as simply and decisively as they do there would be a lot less anxiety and heartache.

i think i've chosen a career that could put me in a place with little human interaction, except those that love animals too is because i really believe that a world with creatures less like us would be one i could be happy with, one that would give me a great sense of peace and comfort.